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Week 48:


This blessing took place the week of August 24th – 30th

Sunday, August 24th would have been mom's 56th birthday. Every year on her birthday we go out to eat at Olive Garden and then send her balloons with Happy Birthday messages. While at lunch we decided as a family we would bless someone at the restaurant, in memory of mom. After some discussion Oscar and I decided we would bless our server.

When he came back to the table to check on us Eli handed him Oscar's debt card. Eli likes to pay for things, and he already knows who to ask. Our server took the card and went back to get our check and charge us for the meal. Oscar has an Arkansas Razorback Alumni logo on his bank card. Prompting our server to ask Oscar questions about his degree, Oscar told him he received a Finance degree. We quickly learned our waiter is also a Razorback and is working towards a triple major. After a brief conversation our waiter left again. Oscar filled in the tip section with a generous tip for the young man, and left a note: "good luck with school." We got up and left. However, half way to the door I realized I forgot my phone at the table. I quickly turned around and met the waiter at our table. He asked me if I was sure the amount was correct. I said yes, you deserve a little extra. He went on to tell me no one has ever been so generous before and asked if he could give me a hug. I'm thankful I left my phone. It blessed me to witness how much our simple gesture meant to this young man. Plus it made for a joyful celebration.

I think I'll always miss my mom. I don't believe time heals all wounds. After mom's death, I noticed my life has a new normal. My new normal is a little bitter sweet. God has blessed me with a beautiful family, a healthy son, a home, a job, and food on the table. Not having mom here to celebrate in the birthdays, the first steps, our first home and every small accomplishment in between is a little bitter sweet. While I'm happy and joyful to have the blessings I have I am a little sad she isn't here to celebrate with us.

However, continuing to celebrate her legacy with Olive Garden, balloons, and a few blessings sure makes missing her a little less bitter and a whole lot sweeter. I don't know why my mom died so young. I don't know why God blessed me to be a mom after my mom died. I feel like I fail at motherhood every day. Honestly, sometimes I get angry because I don't have my mom here to guide me and help me in the role of motherhood. Whatever that means…

I'm no Martha Stewart… I'm very much my mother's daughter. I'm goofy, compassionate, and forgetful. As much as I want to be my mom I'm something even better… I. Am. Me. Thankfully, because of her I'm a better version of myself. Yes, I'm a work in progress and I'm not perfect, but I am intelligent, beautiful, passionate, and I really do love people. I love listening to people tell stories, I love helping someone find their way home, and I love watching people interact with one another. So no I'm not a Martha Stewart wife… I'm more of a Gigi, God fearing, goofy kind of wife, and I think for now that's good enough for me.

Happy Birthday mom… Thank you for the investment you made in my life. Thank you for being the woman you were. Thank you for loving me and teaching me to love others. Most importantly, mom, thank you for showing me how to love Christ.

At the end of the day God is still good… All the time!

Here's to you mom!


August 24, 2011
 

 
August 24, 2012
 
 August 24, 2013
 
 August 24, 2014
I love capturing the love these 2 share for one another. Eli loves telling his daddy stories and Oscar loves listening.
 
 
 
 


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